Well here we are, one week into the New Year. I was so excited to move and get a fresh start on everything, but I've really only found myself in a total funk for the past couple months now. I feel like I've lost myself somehow, and I just can't seem to pick myself back up. I stopped tracking my food and have made some really unhealthy choices through the holidays. It's a miracle I haven't gained any weight. Well, that's a lie. I gained 3 pounds, but at the same time I discovered that I am not 5'2 1/2 as I have been for most of my life. I am now 5'4, however the hell that happened! But that means that to be at a healthy weight I cannot drop below 117. And that's exactly what I am now :)
So nutritionally, I vow to myself that as of today I will track every single thing that goes into my mouth, and I will make healthier choices about what those things are.
Fitness. While I didn't stop running completely, I totally slacked off. I have been slowly working on this one as of January 1st. I haven't been running my usual 10ks, but I have been running 3 times this week so far. I did 3.4 miles on the 1st, 5.59 miles on the 4th, and 4 miles yesterday (the 6th). To be honest, I liked running on the other golf course better than this one. I miss the trees and the privacy. Other than running, I haven't done much at all, but even before I started slacking off I wasn't doing anything but running. I did get Zumba for the Wii and I tried it once so far. I discovered that I am way more uncoordinated than I originally thought :(
So for fitness goals, I vow to make out an actual routine, and then stick with it! I will run at least 365 miles in 2011. That's only a mile per day which I should have NO problem accomplishing. Especially since I want to begin HM training for the Philadelphia Rock n Roll HM in late summer (August I think). I also want to start training for a triathlon, but that means I have to find a gym with a pool, and then I have to get in a bathing suit in front of people (my biggest fear!) - EEK!
I am now officially employed with Weight Watchers. While that's a GREAT thing, I don't have many hours, and it appears that it will be almost impossible to get on full-time which means I will need supplemental income. I think this is the biggest part of my funk. I really don't want to go back into social work, but I don't know what else to do. I am waitressing part-time, but I really have nothing to say about that ;) So yeah, I definitely feel like I'm kinda stuck in limbo as far as work/money goes. I should be appreciative of the extra study time but that's another thing I've been lacking in. I complained about never having enough time to study and now that I have the time I'm still not doing it like I should, and that makes me feel like a failure :(
School/work goals. Spend (at the very least) 2 hours per day studying. Find a "real" job. Sigh.
I think this is a good start, and as I work out a plan and/or think of other things I will come back here and update. I think I need to blog/journal to keep myself focused. If anyone actually reads this, thank you :)