Tuesday, September 27, 2011

When Pigs Fly?

As I sit here with one lost toenail, another one black and about to go, a pulled hamstring, sore knee and aching feet, I’ve decided to run a marathon!  I’m leaning towards the Flying Pig marathon on May 6, 2012 in Cincinnati, Ohio, but I haven’t completely decided yet.

It’s been one week and two days since I ran the Philadelphia Rock-n-Roll Half Marathon. Up until the gun went off I couldn’t figure out what the hell I thought I was doing lined up with all those people, crammed into corrals like cans of sardines. For the 48 hours leading up to the race I was a complete wreck. Nerves like jelly, stomach all tied up in knots. Couldn’t sleep.  You see, I’m a total introvert.  Even after losing all the weight (and keeping it off for more than 2 years now) I still have self-esteem issues.  I’m terrified of being around people, especially runners.  I don’t know why, but I feel like a fraud.  Other than when the gun goes off and I can just run, when will I ever feel like I fit in?! 

But that’s just it!  Once the gun goes off I no longer care about anything else.  I am in my zone, doing what I love to do. I will admit that I still prefer to run by myself (and not have to “deal” with other people) but as long as I’m running, I’m happy :)  And now that I’ve conquered the half-marathon, it’s time for a new goal! Mission:Marathon!  Which leads me to the next thing… this blog.

So here’s what I really want to do with this blog:

  1. A training log (food/fitness) as I embark on the journey to become a marathoner.
  2. A journal to sort out my feelings and work on my insecurities.
  3. A connection to those of you who are either going through the same things I am, or that I/you have already gone through (i.e., WW, weight-loss, adapting a plant-based/Vegan diet/lifestyle, etc…).  

I actually began writing a new blog over at Wordpress, but decided that I am just going to stay here instead.  I like that Blogger is connected to Google and I can keep everything somewhat together. 

Over the next few days, I’ll be doing some redecorating and most likely changing the name of my blog (and maybe even buying a new domain) so stay tuned…

Oh, and my new Ghosts came today so I’ll leave you with this:


Caron said...

I think I missed something. What happened to your toes? Sounds painful. I'm edging closer to giving up red meat. Last night I read an article about them feeding cows chicken manure. Ugh, gross and nasty!

Laura Belle said...

I think your goals are a fab idea!! Also putting everything 'on paper' helps me a ton! I am a very shy and insecure person with extremely low self esteem, basically because of moving a million times as a kid and then getting horribly picked on by bullies in middle school like 20 years ago. But writing as my 'real' self on here has allowed me to branch out in other areas of my life. I'm more trusting and am able to be....me.

(oh and craploads of counseling has helped a ton.)

Caron said...

PS: I love the little piggy picture.