As I sit here with one lost toenail, another one black and about to go, a pulled hamstring, sore knee and aching feet, I’ve decided to run a marathon! I’m leaning towards the Flying Pig marathon on May 6, 2012 in Cincinnati, Ohio, but I haven’t completely decided yet.
It’s been one week and two days since I ran the Philadelphia Rock-n-Roll Half Marathon. Up until the gun went off I couldn’t figure out what the hell I thought I was doing lined up with all those people, crammed into corrals like cans of sardines. For the 48 hours leading up to the race I was a complete wreck. Nerves like jelly, stomach all tied up in knots. Couldn’t sleep. You see, I’m a total introvert. Even after losing all the weight (and keeping it off for more than 2 years now) I still have self-esteem issues. I’m terrified of being around people, especially runners. I don’t know why, but I feel like a fraud. Other than when the gun goes off and I can just run, when will I ever feel like I fit in?!
But that’s just it! Once the gun goes off I no longer care about anything else. I am in my zone, doing what I love to do. I will admit that I still prefer to run by myself (and not have to “deal” with other people) but as long as I’m running, I’m happy :) And now that I’ve conquered the half-marathon, it’s time for a new goal! Mission:Marathon! Which leads me to the next thing… this blog.
So here’s what I really want to do with this blog:
- A training log (food/fitness) as I embark on the journey to become a marathoner.
- A journal to sort out my feelings and work on my insecurities.
- A connection to those of you who are either going through the same things I am, or that I/you have already gone through (i.e., WW, weight-loss, adapting a plant-based/Vegan diet/lifestyle, etc…).
I actually began writing a new blog over at Wordpress, but decided that I am just going to stay here instead. I like that Blogger is connected to Google and I can keep everything somewhat together.
Over the next few days, I’ll be doing some redecorating and most likely changing the name of my blog (and maybe even buying a new domain) so stay tuned…
Oh, and my new Ghosts came today so I’ll leave you with this: